Time doesnt truly heal all wounds does it? Had a nice chat with mumsie julie yesterday, bullied her as usual while browsing through this long lost section of my computer looking for space hogging files to delete, stumbled across this music folder, opened it up not expecting anything inside and well, it felt like a torrent of old and dear memories being let loose. Nothing much inside actually besides a few and only tracks of chinese songs i have, it've been placed there by someone who was dear to me. and i played, and i played all the songs again.. and i realised..

time doesnt truly heal all wounds does it?

i asked julie, she told me its still up to us ourselves whether we want to let loose of the past, or get bogged down by it. yeah, i know julie, thats what i've been telling myself for the past half a year, and apparently, this weak self of mine still refuses to budge, refuses to see. have i moved on actually? i insist i did, i believe i did. but then again, am i just putting on a front, pretending im strong, pretending i've jolly well moved on? i choose to believe its the latter now.

Then julie asked, have i ever tried to talk things out with her. no, i didn't. i don't dare to, i don't know how to react if we did, thus, im actually rather grateful that we haven't seen each other even accidentally for this half a year. who would i react actually? i wouldn't know and i wouldn't dare try.

sides, happy halloween,deepavali and hari raya to all the readers.

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