its over and done, but the hurting lives on, inside.. its been a while hasnt it, i miss you alot, i cant seem to get over u no matter how hard i try, but i gotta try harder. cus i noe u wun come back already. but the fact remains. i miss u, i miss the things we shared, i missed the every little thing we do for each other. i miss you.

im sorry i couldnt hold back my emotions that day when u msged me. i noe u must've been quite shocked by that reply i gave, im sorry. i wonder how u are doing now, u must be doin well.. as always.

i think about all the things we havent got to do, things we talked abt all day. im afriad of being reminded of them. Even when im driving, i think abt when u used to nag me to learn driving faster so that i can be ur chaffeur. I go shopping, saw those kind of pants u bugged me to try on last time in bugis village, reminds me of u once more. reminds me.. of the days gone by. i go drinking alone, i remember how childish i used to be when im unhappy abt u drinking and stuff.. i see the last gift u've given me, my name on a license plate. its so sweet.. even though you arent here anymore.

i told my frens, i hate u, i wun ever cry for u cus u arent worth it. but im doing the exact opposite now. i wonder how long would it take me to let things go. why cant i be like terence, can let go of stuff so easily.. how i wish i could. be like him. so i could leave u behind.. and move on. ur gone, ur moving on, me.. i thought i moved on, but fact is, i haven't.

how long.. just how long.. tell me.. pls..  ¶ 10:30 PM